This was probably one of the hardest things that I ever had to do. Admit that I was powerless was like pulling a tooth. I know that deep down inside I couldn't carry on living the way that I was. I wanted a out. My significant other told me about the steps and I thought hey why not give it a try. He's been clean for almost 2 years but he never told me that I had to admit that I was powerless. Me of all people being powerless. Wow. I have 7 1/2 months clean and it would have never happened if I had not admit that I was powerless, and continue to do it on a daily basis. I'm realizing more and more exactly what I am powerless over besides my disease, and that is darn here everything.

I know when I came into the rooms I did not know what powerlessness was.I had to admit I was powerless over my addiction and that I neede help,and be able to ask for it.I also had to lean about Honesty ,Openmindedness,and Willingness,I call them the big three,once I admitted I was powerless,and that I was an addict I had to learn to listen to what was being said and try and use it in my daily life.I have just celebrated five years clean on 1/10/2010,i never in this world would have thought I could say that.being in active addiction for over 39 years I had no choice ,either get clean or die,Jails,Institutions and Death .Congratulations on your seven and a half months clean.Keep Coming Back It Works If You Want It.

This is great stuff...Having had clean time in the past recognizing that I was powerless over drugs was not really the problem...But realizing that I am powerless over almost all other things was what made my other things unmanageable. I could no longer be that monkey trying to sell bananas...
I could no longer function in my toxic relationship...
Basically I was no longer captain of my own ship and had to face and deal with all the emotions that I was trying to cover up with drugs...Thanks to help and direction of my sponser and network I have 8 months clean one day at a time.

Thanks for your response and congrats on your 8 months. Not being the captain of my own ship is truly new territory for me and sometimes scary but I can honestly say that my worst day in recovery far out weighs my best day in active addiction.

bubba781 , Admiting our problem is the most important part of revovery.I know I was sick of being an addict and having nothing not even a life.I did not know the true meaning of powerlessness until I came into the rooms.Keep on trying,the monkey is off your back.

lpop72,Keep on trying it works.We are here for you any time.